tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-57170812098844287972024-03-12T21:18:12.668-07:00Kim Hui Lim's SharingIs time to get back to blog... After two years neglecting it...lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.comBlogger35125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-27156262084995417872012-05-03T22:46:00.005-07:002012-05-03T22:46:38.722-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-65681358669670955212012-05-03T22:46:00.003-07:002012-05-03T22:46:35.941-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-62034149037507352462012-05-03T22:46:00.001-07:002012-05-03T22:46:32.684-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-76052730114248991932012-05-03T22:32:00.001-07:002012-05-03T22:32:06.912-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-64577627871211656232012-05-03T22:31:00.003-07:002012-05-03T22:31:59.866-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-62869597037141357992012-05-03T22:31:00.001-07:002012-05-03T22:31:19.041-07:00<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.4</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-69789412768531729052011-06-21T21:37:00.001-07:002011-06-21T21:37:12.587-07:00好多天。。都好多天没写部落格了,应该是之前烦公司的东西吧。然昨天和今天也变得开朗了,应该是工作只剩两天就完了的原因和知道公司问题不大的原因而开怀吧。等下就要回吉隆坡了,但是现在有点累,想先歇一会,但是看见了她送给我的生日礼物,心感动起来了,想回家见她了。都过了一个月半了我的生日,到今天才去看哪礼物就,太无情了我。看见礼物的心细真的被感动了,很想马上去找她,说'对不起,说分手的我后悔了,请你原谅我好吗?' 我好爱他,只是我偶而会忘记,可能是工作影响吧。。。好想她哦。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.2</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-48023348411781995602011-06-16T13:46:00.001-07:002011-06-16T13:46:54.629-07:00What she need?I really have no idea what she need now... What did I did wrong? I also don't know... Hope everything will be better tomorrow... Should be my fault, can't control the old me... Having pressure at work too... What else can I do? Love, career, personal life all in choas, really hope I can overcome all this... But sometime is good to have her with me, even we are not talking, not doing anything, but with her beside, heart still feel steady and good... But maybe this is not what she want, cause this is kinda boring for her... I really in dilemma now, what can I do now? What do she need? I hate myself so much, if I m an orphan then is better cause I can just leave everything behind and go to another world with peace... I don't like this, don't like my status, situation, June is a worst month, especially after breaking up with her... If I never break up now should be better, she also will be very supportive... I felt like I don't really understand n knw her now, she change so much and start to treat me more like a stranger, I'm sad... Really am... Good nitez world... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.1</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-9664944186524093792011-06-12T18:48:00.001-07:002011-06-12T18:48:53.591-07:00Be strong...Must be strong ya, drink more water, take good care of urself... Sleep more, rest well... I'm worry bout u... Please, must recover ya... Miss u so much... Wish to see u ASAP...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.1</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-84267616805760770342011-06-12T12:29:00.001-07:002011-06-12T12:29:27.193-07:00Worry bout her.Just saw her tweet just now, she is not really happy bout her legs now. It is getting serious, she hates it when ppl keep mentioning it and making it a big issue. Most important is that she never knw what is going on with her legs. I'm worry to see her like this, hope that her leg will get well soon... Beside she is in dilemma now I, whether is she still in love with him or not, she is happy to be with him, whatever he does will still affect him, but she got no idea she still got any feeling towards him, cuz to her, a person that will let her break up with is no longer loved by her. Hope she will find bck the feeling of love towards him and also stay happy like the moment they have together now... Love her so much... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.1</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-44422750319605699472011-06-11T18:22:00.001-07:002011-06-11T18:22:26.962-07:00Few days at KL.....Am going back to JB later, was at KL for the last four days. Happy of cause because I get to be with her everyday... But a bit pressure too due to the bad news I received regarding my career. Anyway tonight will roughly know what is going to happen to me... I wish all that never happen becuz it will make my last few days even greater. Yesterday almost forgot to attend my friend wedding, is a primary school friend. But lucky enough I went to nearby to watch movie, so when the wedding just started I just manage to get there, but too bad to leave her alone in the cinema for about an hour. Still I feel relieve at least I turned up to my friend wedding even she also forgot to pass me the wedding invitation card, n I was happy to meet with all my old classmate, n wish my married friend stay happy always. I was rushing back to cinema to meet her. After the movie finish I asked hee to join my friend gathering too, it seem boring for her bcuz she knows no one there. N we made it very late yesterday, she still need to drive back to her home yesterday,I'm not willing to let her go just like that cuz its dangerous but I'm a buy drunk and tired, and she insist she wanna go bck home, then we say goodbye to each other but I can sense her dissatisfaction since yesterday gathering. I hope she don't be unhappy, eventhough she deny herself to be unhappy but I can sense it, maybe mainly due to she feel that I'm social'ing' with her yesterday. But I'm concern about her feeling so I did that, not just about social and whatever, maybe she dont understand, is ok then, just hope that she will be happy. Hope she will know my situation too, cuz her gesture really look down, n some of my friend saw that too, is bothering cuz I don't wish her treat me like this in front of my friends. Anyway pass is pass, hope that ke really understand... Ok need to prepare myself for travelling again. C u.<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.1</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-43652944896930800552011-06-07T18:30:00.001-07:002011-06-07T18:30:27.920-07:00heading bck to KL!!Don't give OT ma don't give lo, I go back KL lo... Hahaha...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-22930440930879147092011-06-07T07:35:00.001-07:002011-06-07T07:35:21.259-07:00兴奋。不知何故,今天上班时特别的兴奋,好想飞起来的感觉。。。可能是感觉到还有希望吧,也感觉到以前刚刚和她走在一起的感觉。哪兴奋的感觉真的很好,因为它让我觉得面前的一切都会是美好的。心,也变踏实了。到了公司,还是很兴奋。不久在公司里就有好消息了,上礼拜与我吵架的老板也认低威,走过来问我还好吗,因为他此终还是把我的要求給答应了,调我到回维修部。这就是知识的厉害,也是道理的威力。最重要的还是自己决不能放弃自己的人权,勇于表达自己的不满。 <br/> 现在正是休息时间,溜了出来,写了些讯息,发了出去,这个时候的她应该早已看完戏了吧,有可能正在吃饭,喝茶或去逛街。不管什么都好,最重要的是她开心就好了,这样才可以把她的伤口加快的复原。 <br/> 在发没回应的讯息原来是这么一个感觉的,呵呵,有点小幸福,有点想念,有点无可奈何。但是心里还是开心的,因为心里明白讯息将会被回复,期待讯息里的内容。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-9611472340420074882011-06-06T19:56:00.001-07:002011-06-06T19:56:45.889-07:00my eyes are heavy...Tired... Sleep not very well last two days... Need to rest earlier... Nitez n morning too... Take good care of yourself... Concentrate in lecture later. : ) <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-55330316112935597212011-06-06T08:15:00.001-07:002011-06-06T08:15:26.253-07:00思念。Riding on my bike to work just now. Suddenly think of the word 思念, unconciously the rhythm flow out from my mouth... The lyric follow tightly... <br/> <br/> 思念是一种很玄的东西 <br/> 如影~随形 <br/> 无声又无息出没在心底 <br/> 转眼~吞没我在寂默里 <br/> 我无力抗拒特别是夜里喔~ <br/> 想你到无法呼吸 <br/> 恨不能立即朝你狂奔去 <br/> 大声的告诉你~ <br/> 愿意为你我愿意为你 <br/> 我愿意为你忘记我姓名 <br/> 就算多一秒停留在你怀里 <br/> 失去世界也不可惜 <br/> 我愿意为你我愿意为你 <br/> 我愿意为你被放逐天际 <br/> 只要你真心拿爱与我回应 <br/> 什么都愿意 什么都愿意为你 (music) <br/> <br/> 我无力抗拒特别是夜里喔~ <br/> 想你到无法呼吸 <br/> 恨不能立即朝你狂奔去 <br/> 大声的告诉你~ <br/> 愿意为你我愿意为你 <br/> 我愿意为你忘记我姓名 <br/> 就算多一秒停留在你怀里 <br/> 失去世界也不可惜 <br/> 我愿意为你我愿意为你 <br/> 我愿意为你被放逐天际 <br/> 只要你真心拿爱与我回应 <br/> 什么都愿意 什么都愿意为你 <br/> 我什么都愿意 什么都愿意为你 <br/> <br/> Love it very much... <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-48497342923773256362011-06-06T01:43:00.001-07:002011-06-06T01:43:21.620-07:00Love the feeling of love...Just talked over the phone with her... I can sense that she still the same her, a bit blur, a bit don't know what to do... Still will ask my help, still as sweet as before... Just don't know is she still love me... Anyway I can feel happiness within me, teaching her patiently, talking to her softly, care for her feeling, even just now got one second my old habit of impatient because of line not clear will try to take over me... But very quick I can sense the hurt I'm going to develop, so I kill it off very quickly... I love this feeling, haha... Cuz this is the feeling show how much I love her... N I'm in love like lasttime. So I pass the first round, just how frequent can I control myself is the second test, I must also pass through it before I dare to promise her things again... N I know this is good for me, cuz I will try my best to apply on person I love n care. This control must last long enough to transform into a habit, so then I won't hurt her again... Is good that we stay as what it is now until both are ready to go for a deeper move... I love her so I will change for her... So I should not be sad... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-41997539887871511002011-06-05T18:54:00.001-07:002011-06-05T19:21:59.437-07:00I smashed it ten rounds to spoilt it... I really don't deserve this girl... but I love her so much...27th of may, Friday - sleep til mid night, crap fren asked to go party, unwillingly, wish to lie on the bed more... but can't bcuz my fren.sacrifice his work day to go out with me, TOT of celebrating my resignation. But I din mean to celebrate on that night, just wanna go for a movie, that y I said they r crap fren... <br/> <br/> 28th of may, Saturday - party til morning, but not drunk cuz I din drink, mind keep running, but still worry my gf will find out, I care. A day in dilemma, starts losing myself. Thinking of am I love her so much, or I can love other deeper... never contact her the whole day, cuz I sleep until midnight of Sunday... <br/> <br/> 29th of may, Sunday - breakfast with fren since din sleep after woke up from midnite the day before, send our little 5 days pet back to the ocean, send her the picture, inform her n wanna c her reaction, I care. As always need to work, focus too much on gossiping in company, din contact her after that, also dilemma still runs in my mind... <br/> <br/> 30th of may, Monday - play com after reach home, work in attitude mode cuz resign ad, never bother to contact her cuz of many distraction n dilemma, argue with boss... but did her a favor in print screen her timetable, haha... actually I care too... <br/> <br/> 31st of may , Tuesday - waking up from bed, evening, before going to work... see her msg at whatapps saying tq for my effort on her timetable... starts to think of her, missing her... tweet her and apologise for not msg her this few days... maybe she din notice I'm in dilemma, she never suspect anything, still ask why am I weird to say sorry... is ok, she never finds out is ok, I'm good now... cuz I'm readying to get out from d dilemma.. <br/> <br/> 1st of June, Wednesday - horrible thg happens, will remember in my lifetime, she text me out of curiosity, I doubt her, get angry... hurt her... <br/> <br/> First hurting... <br/> Complaint her of childish and funny.. actually she is not childish, she really feels weird, n more importantly she cares of me... <br/> <br/> Second hurting... and the same time <br/> Third hurting... <br/> Start impatient, start typing word sound scolding, blame she suspect me... third hurting, by saying she suspect me is equal to saying I dun believe her, I don't knw it is link, I'm such stupid... she is right... <br/> <br/> Fourth hurting... <br/> Scolding her with harsh word... I'm.really a rubbish bf... <br/> <br/> 1st of June, the same day - she starts to tweet her feeling, y tweet? Bcuz she believe tweeter provide the room for me to understand her... I knw but fail to understand her... <br/> Then she is mad, is good to be mad, cuz at that moment she still love me, I can't provide her comfort ground, she seeks for happiness with fren at klcc... she is poor, don't she? To have a bf like me... <br/> Still, I hurt her in tweet too... <br/> <br/> Fifth hurting... <br/> Reply her in tweet in blaming tone... killing off all her explanation... <br/> <br/> At night, <br/> She tweet again, she fail to get happiness... she is really hurt, her heart really pain, I cant sense it at tat moment, that y my heart is pain now... I deserve this. <br/> <br/> She continue to tweet, she can't breathe now... is hurt, really, deeply... but she still continue to explain, until she starts to sense of giving up on me... i had success, success in inviting disaster to me... I'm such a dumb ass... she will stop tweeting now cuz she claimed that I don't care... actually I care but I'm too focus of winning... will u forgive me? <br/> <br/> At deeper midnight, 2nd of June <br/> She can't sleep, is hurting... she claimed not to tweet but she still love, care... she whatapps me, asking for discussion, hope that I won't be angry, hope that I'm fine, still making the same explanation that I don't bother listen to... she told me she is hurt, she told me she don't dare to c My reply, she told me she is sorry... even a blind person can sense the deep of.the wound created by me... actually I care, but I wanted to win so much, it blinds me... I'm sorry dear... I lose now... everything... <br/> <br/> Early morning the same day, <br/> Sixth hurting... <br/> Say that v r different, maybe no longer suitable... this is the word hurts her so much... Lim Kim Hui do u knw?? N u said it two times... <br/> <br/> Morning the same day, <br/> She care for this relationship so much, she asked me to chill if I really think that v r no longer suitable... cuz she said v nid to talk... I told her to talk when I'm back... I got no mood, after argue with boss n facing prob paying summon... I'm such a low EQ person huh...once again, I deserve this... she continue to comfort me, ask me to take care n b happy... <br/> Seventh hurting, <br/> I'm too cruel saying that I'm happy to her at that moment, actually I'm not happy... I just WAN to show my anger... I'm stupid.. <br/> <br/> Afternoon the same dat, I drove back from jb to KL... quite fast, why so fast? Just feel like going bck KL ASAP... cuz wanna hang out with ppl to release tension... but not her... cuz I tot I can live without her...but I'm wrong... after some jam at KL , just before I reach home, <br/> Eighth hurting, <br/> I felt tired, n dunwan to hang out or get emotionally disturbed, so I told her don't meet tat nite, felt like I'm cool, but actually I'm acting cool... after one hour of com game. <br/> Finally I care, I whatapps her asking when she will be free but she said she dated, I cont my acting say is ok... but actually deeply inside myself I knew that I'm not ok... I'm curious who she go out with, going to which cinema, what show... and I feel like asking her for movie too, is what we always do whenever I come bck to KL... but I stop questioning her, trying to tell myself she got her own life n circle of fren, I shud not interrupt like lasttime... lasttime I sabotage a lot of her date with fren... I learned, so I learned to accept it slowly, until today... I care... yet I say is ok then... but I care again by asking what time will she reach home... she said eleven pm... is kind of late cuz that time is about eight pm... I'm tired after long journey drive n long hrs working... finally at eight fourth pm I feel asleep but I inform her that I'm sleepy... I care again... <br/> <br/> At late night, the same day <br/> She replied my last msg, saying tml meet up will do, but I'm asleep... then later in mid night she told me to meet tonite also will do if I haven sleep... cuz she care, she really WAN to talk to me, cuz she still love me... I'm asleep still... no reply, she waited n gave up... say tml will do again... <br/> <br/> 3rd of June, Thursday <br/> Early morning I whatapps her, asking her to come out... but I knw she is still sleeping so I waited her... I haven eat breakfast but is ok to wait for her I think at that moment... she replied and we went out... <br/> Don't know why once I see her, my acting starts again, is kinda late also bcuz she nid to school, we don't really have much time to talk... I felt neglected cuz I TOT she really looking forward n seriously nid this conversation... <br/> <br/> Ninth hurting, <br/> I turn my care into anger, starts to scold her... the conversation start ugly due to my hot tempered, finally i said the maybe we should separate, I said it, with much emotion disturbed, mostly by anger but not rational n feeling towards her... <br/> <br/> Afternoon to evening the same day, <br/> Spend the whole day in her hus together with her, feeling comfortable and happy.. play with wee wee, our pet but is her pet play with her bro... talk with d sister n mother... aunty ask me to eat seed too... I feel ashamed cuz she dunno I'm in argue mode with d daughter but I still say yes I wanna eat with them, cuz I hope that this gives me more feeling compares my anger... <br/> Then she come to my hus, hang out with my parents too, still like a family, evythg seem normal, I'm happy she is be with me at that moment, but I'm still confused with myself... I need more of those feeling... the feeling of she is my family member... to recall me my love in her... <br/> <br/> Night, the same day... <br/> Finally we need to talk... in d car before she went back home, she never starts the topic, I got no choice to starts... and v argue again bcuz of my always want to win mentality... again <br/> Tenth hurting, <br/> I said maybe we no longer suitable again... full of temper again... <br/> Finally at the staircase, she accepted what i said n ask for a break... but I din accept on d spot... I'm extremely confused, I think for quite a moment... quietly thinking... I request for two weeks after I settle evythg in sg but she don't want it... n I said since she say that then I will have to follow it... but I knew the answer is not my answer... I'm really confused... but with the feeling of being man , I said is ok then... again an answer without rationally think... even after that I'm still confused, I can't c my reaction... cuz I dunno what happened to me... I reached home whatapps her again... cuz I still care... my sadness come into picture when I receive her msg... officially stated that we are breaking up... the confuse is being washed, love is appearing again... im sad yet happy cuz I know what I want now... I don't knw will it be to late... I just dunno what will happen to us in d future... but I hope she can come back to me... be my gf again... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-42328729182505688362011-06-05T07:52:00.001-07:002011-06-05T07:52:50.529-07:00骑着摩托车,行着,想着,笑了。。。回来新山不到一小时就骑上摩托去上班了,停了下来打了通电话,不知何故心是有点开朗的。骑着骑着的同时,嘴角湾了起来,想起了以前的往事,甜的,很多都是甜的。。。画面一幕幕的出现,有带着眼镜的雪人,抱着她的我,亲着脸蛋的小海龟,玩着游戏的撤脸,袋着小帽的她。。。奇怪的,眼睛又泪汪汪了,是为什么? 因为发现了自己到了现在才会回忆过去,现在才会真心的开心。心里真的很难受,为什么我会如此后知后觉?为什么我会如此狠心?为什么我这种人会生存着?我的感官是否都是石头造成的?我的七情六欲呢?我到底有吗?<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-16186346631734145942011-06-05T01:59:00.001-07:002011-06-05T02:02:26.905-07:00我很肯定的去挽回,可是是否还来得及?我挽回我们的这段感情,这并不是我不想在这感情中认输,而是我真的深深的体会到我对她的爱原来是如此强烈。我一直以为我可以恨潇洒的结束它,其实在分开的那一刻我真的没察觉到异样,可是当在收到她的讯息时,当在发现到我们将真的要分开时,那些真实的感觉都涌进我心里。我不懂现在的她是怎么了,我更不懂我做了这错误得决定影响她有多深,我只懂我爱了,深深的,要挽回了,留住她了。时间,我对你说,如果真的可以的话,我请求您把她的伤口慢慢复原,好让那以往爱惜我的灵魂重住到她的躯壳上。灵魂,我对您说,您一定要回来,因为吓跑您的一切都不在了,不会再回来了,你一定要回来,因为现在会面对你的是真正疼你和爱你的,现在您才会真正得到快乐与幸福。不管您需要多少时间走多少的路程,我都会站在那老地方等着,默默的等着,回来吧。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-58129802732768305252011-06-05T00:55:00.001-07:002011-06-05T00:55:27.918-07:00为什么人很善变?人都很善变,我也不例外,可是我希望这次是我对她最后一次的善变。在短短一天内我就得到了我要的答案,这真实么?这答案明确吗?我不懂,我只懂短短一天内我流下了无数次的眼泪,这只证明了我真的很在乎这段感情,其他的都不重要了,如果真的我又做错,我改,如果她有做错,我陪她改。最重要的是她还在我身边关心我,陪伴我,这就好了。现在的我才发现我对她的爱在对她不理不睬与埋怨她的同时已经延伸到了我内心的深处,无法自拔,原来爱是那么一回事。上天请保佑我与她。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-66989546221910420392011-06-04T01:16:00.001-07:002011-06-04T01:20:18.976-07:00满满流下的泪水,想着,写着,越来越思念。。。对她的感觉越来越强烈了。我好像做错了,很想去找她可是担心将来又会伤害她。她真的很好,这只是我犯贱。我到底怎么了呢? 忍着?别忍? 我该怎么办?想起对她大喊大叫的每一幕都让我觉得自己是个贱人,想起她毫无怨言的接受自己的破口大骂就让我觉得自己很自私。可是现在的我真的没把握可以让他很幸福。我自私,她无私,我把她都不懂放第几位,她却样样都把我放第一位,我常常对她埋怨,她常常对我以德报怨,我凶狠,她温柔,我残忍,她很有爱心,我生日的每一份礼物都是她亲手做的,我却试过没送她生日礼物,我觉得她弱点很多,其实我自以为是,我常常教唆她目无尊长,她常常教我要孝顺,我却没真正的听得进去,我常常让她流泪,她常常希望我开心,我做人很现实,她做人很有人情味。到了现在我终于懂其实我对她的埋怨都是在一些不重要的事情上,而她对我的劝服都在人生大题上,我才是真正的无知,我才是真正的笨蛋。我注重她的外表,她却喜欢我的内涵,她曾几何时也是个好多人追但却无动于衷的女生?她曾几何时也是个坚强和不易落眼泪的女生,为何她选择了我这个让她伤心流泪的人呢?我改变了她以为会对她更好,但是我没有想过这对她来说开心吗?我改变她因为我在意外人对她的认可,这证明了我自私,她改变我都是我的坏习惯,她希望我更好。我真的很错,这将来我会保证可以对她更好吗?我不会答,不敢答,也没资格答。到了这个地步我只好祝她幸福,愉快。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-9560795046071397382011-06-03T22:28:00.001-07:002011-06-03T22:28:23.743-07:00眼泪。。。眼泪不由自主的流下来,这到底是为什么? 要做火星男,原来真的很困难。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-4856458037819615622011-06-03T19:30:00.001-07:002011-06-03T19:30:56.732-07:00我没有资格去爱别人。。。我可是没资格啊。我的人身生就好像一直在做戏,为别人而活。我懂可是我改不了。我很多弱点却不去面的,我去面对又改不好,所以我没资格去爱人,因为我不懂得爱自己。我以为我爱我自己可是爱自己的人不该为别人而活,爱自己的人只做自己想要做的东西,不会受人影响。看来我真的不会爱自己。我好迷糊,我到底是怎么了?希望时间可以让我找到我想要的答案。。。<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-3368141510669688492011-06-03T08:57:00.001-07:002011-06-03T19:14:55.405-07:00am i right? I am such a bad ass...Sometime I will think single is better than couple... I live my couple for 2 years n 5 months... from 01.01.09 until 03.06.11, this is quite a long period... n today I come bck to single again... I made this decision without knowing am I right or wrong. It's a huge decision.
Is every single relationship will start with sweetness n then come to dull? Is every relationship need to have balance love from both party? If relationship goes too long is it need something else to maintain such as same hobby, interest n etc from both ppl?
She is kind hearted, I do this for sure will hurt her a lot... but by not doing this am I going to bully her forever? I break up here will it be more happiness for her? am I really love her so much or I can find a better one in term of feeling n character? One thing for sure that I know, to some extend I'm selfish bcuz I think I can find a more suitable one, to some extend I believe I can find a deeper feeling one... that y I said I'm a bad ass... but on another hand is it bcuz the relationship go too long until I forget my love in her? Am I grow to be more greedy? If i am greedy it is good for me to break up too other than hurting her in long term but now I'm hurting her too... I'm in dilemma bcuz I dunwan to hurt someone love me more than herself again n again. Most important I don't even understand myself, am I really that greedy or just for the moment I think is the best solution for us... started to type this from yesterday mid night until now I woke up, I can't sleep well bcuz I start to think of her, I start to feel my feeling on her is coming back, actually I do know this maybe coming back that why I need this to happen, to confirm myself that this is the girl that I want to be with for the rest of my life... by this only I won't feel sorry for her in the future, by this only I knw I can promise her a lot, by doing this only I know I can sacrifice for her, I can live with her and only with her... to me now is something like a cooling period. I'm scared to find out that I'm not in love with her anymore, but I'm scared to find out that I'm in love with her and it is too late to get bck her, also I'm scared that I will take very long to truly know myself... but I can't make this in rush too, for her happiness n mine, I can't decide this quickly, I must b logic, bcuz I dunwan in d future I hurt her again if I'm still in love with her.
My brain is full of question now but only with a certain answer, im such a bad ass... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5717081209884428797.post-14530689798437777292011-06-01T08:19:00.001-07:002011-06-01T08:19:13.628-07:00At Boon Lay Place for dinner again...So again me and three other colleagues hunt for food at Boon Lay Place, today we got here earlier and more choices can be made... I ordered mee again with my favorite Fan Shu desert, yummy!! I eat first lo...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.9</div>lkimhuihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14439673461905424637noreply@blogger.com0